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Ever since sunday, i was fantasizing of him coming here. He gives me rides all the way to my house sometimes, even though he goes to work really far away from here. My friend from school told me that I'm the only one person he has take all the way to their house. And since he doesn't work on mondays, I was so hoping he would offer to take me home. And on my innocent mind I was thinking that he might wanna come in for wat ever reason, but then I put my feet on the ground and realized that was so unrealistic.
When I started thinking that he might wanna come in i thought that may be I should clean the house a little bit but when I started to be realistic, i thought "why clean? I'm gonna be the only one here all day long." So there were cans, magazines, trash and a pillow and a sheet on the living room. All my beauti supplies spread through the bathroom along with the clothes i had taken off this morning in the floor. My bed was covered with all sorts of clothes. I couldn't pick out what to wear...
Monday came. I was sort of happy to see him walk into school like about 9am but I ignored every move he made after that because I was way to consentrated on finishing my web site. Its not that I monitor him all day long. The reason is that between our classrooms instead of a wall there is a big glass. I peek at times to see him.
Class ended and it was our little lunch break. I went into the cafeteria looking for my friend, but instead found him with one his friends. I decided I was gonna wait for him to notice me. When he didn't I sat with a girl from a class I had months ago but that I hadn't seen much since. We talked about nothing. I was still waiting for him to come by and say hi. My friends walked in and I told her what was happening. She didn't put much attention as always. The girl left.
I told my friend that it was time for us to go up to class. Right after us He exited. He was going to his car. I felt a little sad to think that he was going home and my childish fantazy wouldn't be. But He was just going to grab something, I guess, because later I saw him upstairs. I had my back to the door and the other glass-replaced wall.
When History of Our Time ended, I had already made up my mind about walking home. Walked out and accompanied my friend to the cafeteria to wait for the teacher who was gonna give her a ride.
There we were waiting for Teacher Brenda, when He walked in. My friend, Mariela, commented that He hadnt said hi to either of us. He apologized. I told him if He was gonna give me a ride since Mariela wasnt gonna go walking with me. He said yes and I didnt think much of it even when Mariela was making funny faces at me.
We went out to the parking lot and I was a little annoyed that He was gonna take some other girl to her house. Luckily she lives closer to the school then me so He took her home first. I'm always so nervous when I'm in the car alone with him. I'm always looking out the window or at the floor. He kept talking and I asked him what he was gonna do today on his day off. He said he might be going to the movies to see New Moon and I told him that Harry Potter was so much better because it is. And he told me he liked it but that he hadnt read the 7th one and I told him I had it if he wanted to borrow it. He said yes.
We got home and I told that I would bring him the book but he told me He was thirsty and if I could give him some water. He entered my house and I remembered the mess. Since we are friends, I didn't mind it that much but it still was embarrasing. I told him to ignore all the mess. We went in and I poured him something to drink and gave him the book. I thought it would be over then but he asked if he could see my deviantart account since he has been wanting to see it for sometime, I hope. I said "sure", Turned the computer on and showed him my profile. Then it all starts to get blurry in my head.
We started watching some music videos in youtube. He showed me a girl in here that does some awesum Naruto-inpired manga. He showed me where He watched some series. He told me He didn't like Lady Gaga and I told him I didnt like Avril Lavigne since she fought with MCR. We talked a lot. Not about many things though. We were looking in his myspace and He told me He was part of some group called "the Maricas" asnd that all the persons in it were bi, gay, or lesbians. I asked if he was a lesbian, even though Mariela had already told me that He was bi. He said bi. And I couldn't swallow or breath. When I regained the movement of my insides I stared to laugh like an idiot. After a while of talking and seeing some sites, I guess He probably got a bit bored adn asked me if He could straighten his hair with my hair strightener since he didnt have one. I think he was doing that for me because I always tell him how he looked so cool as an emo-ish guy before. Like a week ago he straightened his hair and Mariela told he had done it for me. I giggled in response.
Now that he there with his back to me, I was tempted to look at his cute butt but I was afraid He would notice that through the mirror and I stopped myself. When sat down again, I was gonna tell him that he looked sexy as a compliment disguised as a joke. The words never came out. He has gotten s much skinnier then when I first met him. He's a little sexier, I think. That is a big plus since he isn't the cutest guy in the world. I couldnt care much though since, for some reason, I'm totally Lady Gaga over him. Get it? Instead of gaga over him, Lady Gaga over him? no? okay..
At five till 2pm, He said he had to go and I felt a little sad and a little relieved. Sad because He was living and nothing mayor happened, even though most of the time I was just thinking "Kiss me already!!" And relieved because the nerves were killing me! As He was living I said bye and walked him to the door. I looked back and I saw that He had forgotten the book. I went bad and gave it to him. Now that I think back I shouldn't have done that so that He could come back tomorrow for it, but thats not what friends do. We are supposed to be friends even though I want to change that.Though I get this feeling He doesn't really want that with me. I gave the book to him. We said our good-byes and I came in a sang out of happiness a little. Then I decided to write all about this day here so I can remember it. I don't like to forget things like this. And I forget a LOT of stuff.
Took me an hour to write all this but its so worth it. I don't really expect anyone to read it. I dont think even my best friends are gonna be interested in reading all this crap and thats just sad. Though if they do I promise to love them for ever!
Ever since I heard Lady Gaga's Bad Romance, I had been planning to tell him that if ever we had a moment that was worth those lines.
I guess my childish dreams are not so impossible after all.
Now before I pass out from hunger, I must go eat.